back from work again. hmm. getting home later and later each day. today was a busy day for me la. cause one worker nv come. den oh my god. 2 person including me handling quite a lot of things. plus when one come, all come. oh man. anyway, at least i won't fall asleep.
but till ard 10 plus i am dead tired but lucky dee and me were msging each other. haha. tat kept me awake.
oh ya. erena say she bgt bdae prezzy for me alrdy. wonder wat it is. haha. she say tat i am gonna damn love it. haha. den tat kind of evil laughter. haha.
i was frustrated these few days. think cause of work ba. den those ppl. oh my god. dunno wat to say la. haha. but, i was kinda sad abt this thing tat i am gonna talk abt.
it's abt my daddy. is like i work till 11 plus 12 like tat. den i go home alone. if there is mrt, i take mrt. if no, i take taxi. den is like dangerous for me to go home alone. den every nite, he dun bother to call to ask if i have reach home. last time he will ask me to call which is only once. den after when i am going home ask me to take care. now, nothin at all. even my god dad and my aunt care more abt me. they will call me to check if i haf reach home or sometimes ask me to wait for my dad den go home together cause they worried. is like. my daddy. is business more impt than her real daughter? even my mum wait up for me till i come home no matter how late i reach home. i seriously dunno wat to say. anyway, juz wanna say it out so i will feel better. bye.

ok. juz reach home not long ago. today kinda busy. but nor serving customers but wiping things and tying things. haha. hmm. wanted to take taxi home. but long queue la. haha. nvm.
oh ya. so happy for my sweet fren trudy!! she got someone she noe in cats class and another person. so happy for her!! haha. woohoo. hmm. i got to work frm mon to wed. den mon after sch go work den can take the same train as carlin. haha. nothin much to blog about though. it's so cold at nite and i walk in the rain. haha. the end.

nothing last forever!!

went back to sch today again!! see all those secondary school students. hmm. make me remind me of the past. haha. i miss wearing sch uniform. today the programme was ok la. not bad. juz tat... dunno how to say. haha. oh ya. the emcees were funny la. at least they manage to make the audience laugh. great job man. too bad can't tell them face to face. haha. cause it is really hard to be emcee and entertain the crowd. haha. trudy muz be smiling now. haha.
den went to eat mac. it's been so long since i eat mac. nice nice. haha. and. wow. someone is feeling angry sia. damn scared la. anyway, the person ok alrdy i think. mon sch reopen liao. hmm. kinda looking forward to it though. cause i dun need to work alrdy. haha. today bring camera but no use. cannot take. eh.. no chance to take. haha.
oh man. den at the pasar malam, someone juz scold me for nothin. i am so angry la. i almost throw the cushion in front of her. but, i bear wif it. i mean. i ask only wat to confirm. den scold me den give me tat kind of face. wat the hell la. anyway, tat's the past already.
gonna buy lots of things after sch reopen when i get to go out. muhahaha. :) cheers!!

yeah!! so damn happy today! oh man. u guys brighten up my day today. haha. went to sch for zest thing. den i saw my poly frens. haha. so happy to see them again. hmm. den the thing end at 10. cause i tell my god dad tat i will go work at ard 1 plus. den i go shopping with them for a while. but i didn't get to go bugis village. nvm. there will be other days and time rite gals?? haha. will be gg back to sch on wed only. which is the actual thing itself. can't wait man. haha.
while working, i guess i was too tired, i doze off while sitting on the chair. haha. so pai seh la. haha. business is not getting gd in anyway. how how. i dunno how. actually, i dun mind working at the pasar malam. cause the workers there sure will make me laugh wif their jokes. but, dun mistaken tat i've become auntie ar. haha. yup yup. but is just the long tiring hours tat is no gd. sometimes the customers oso la. come and disturb den make till the things so messy den walk off. typical ppl. haha.
sch gonna start in like 1 week time? hmm. hope it will be a smooth semester for me and tat the modules will be easy to handle. floorball oso gonna toughen the training cause IVP i january. haha. anyway, juz wish me luck.
i guess he is attached, though i can't do anything erm, in fact i have never done anything. so, juz wish him all the best la. hahaha. i miss snow white and the seven dwarfs!! till i blog, take care yeah!! cheers!!

please dun take my sunshine away!!

i'm yearning for something. but i guess, i will haf to wait for a very long time before i will have it. hmm. hope i will get it soon...
i'm still not any better. think cause of work. haiz. anyway, one couple came to buy cushion cover. den they are very loving la though they nv show it out. den the guy very sweet oso. wa. his smile is charming la. den he oso treat the gal very gd. hmm. he oso very cute. haha. so happy for them.
u have changed. totally changed. not the person i noe before. and, right from this moment, i am gonna erase and forget watever memories i haf of u. u dun mean anything to me and i dun care anymore. nothin is going to hold me back anymore.
hmm. in like few more days can see my poly frens already. can't wait. but when can i see snow white and the seven dwarfs???

argh. life sucks for me now. dunno why. life juz sucks. feeling so damn down, so damn.... pissed off. so damn... argh. why am i feeling like this?
anyway, saw newspaper and derrick sign contract with play music. gd gd. den jun yang and derrick will haf album. hmmm. haf been thinking abt the past, this make me more sad. cause i miss my friends. everyone. haiz. i miss floorball oso.
have been sacrificing my time for my dad's pasar malam. haiz. dun even haf the time for myself. damn sad la. haiz. tat's all.

haven been blogging. was too tired to blog. haha. nothin much happen though. hmm. oh ya. today clementi central got one fire incident. yup yup. den the central was damn smoky la. cannot see the building frm a short distance. hmm. sad. at first 31 oct dun need to sch one, den in the end, 4-6 got lecture. my god. argh.. haha.
anyway, i haf straighten out my thoughts, and i guess i noe wat i am feeling and what i want. so yup, no more of tat and tat. hahaha. but i wanna go out shopping. it's been years since i shop. haha. exaggerating. haha.
i saw some handsome malays guys at the pasar malam. haha. but i can only see. haha. but it is better than nothin la. haha. tat's all yeah. hmmm. :)

hmmm. check my timetable already. ok la. but tue n thurs end at 5, den got floorball, den cannot go home liao. den haf to bring the stick. den i sure very clumsy one. haha. hmmm. den IS class in the morning. hope can wake up la. can't wait for sch reopen. juz wanna haf fun go sch, but dun wan study. haha. oh ya. first wk of sch i only need to go sch for 2 days. woohoo.. which means i got to work. haha.
den i almost died today. i am exaggerating. long story la. lazy to type. haha. den business is still poor la. hope it will pick up some days. now, i got eat lunch le. breakfast i eat bread lor. ya lor. dinner i take one scoop of rice only lor. haha. oh ya. is biscuit a junk food? hmm.. and i have bad cramps today. my god. but still went to work. now better le.
tat's all. cheers. cheer up dee. sure can find someone u noe same class as u de. :)

i did a survey while working. den i find out, out of 10 who rebond their hair, 8 of them turn out to be a disaster. izzit cause their hair no gd or izzit cause the salon no gd? hmmm..
den i look at how people dress, den some big size ppl, they like to wear body hugging clothes. why ar. i am not commenting on them. juz wondering. cause is a lot of them wear like tat.
den hor. i see some of them got quite nice jeans sia. can anyone tell me where to buy nice n comfortable n affordable jeans?? haha. need to get some.
ok. work n work. not much of business though. is the economy fault? haha. but the economy is growing leh. haha. den cause i am getting fatter, morning i eat breakfast wif my mum den afternoon, i eat bread n biscuit only. den nite. depends la. sometimes eat, sometimes nv eat. haha. hope like tat can lose some weights. though the actual way is to exercise la. but, i can't exercise. sob sob. but i make a point to wake up earlier in the morning to do some sit ups. haha.
anyway, watever u gonna do, sms, gg out again, juz anything u do, it is nv gonna make me touched again. i'm juz pissed off. i dun care anymore. and i mean it.

i had a nice and sweet dream last nite. woohoo.. haha. hmm. dreams ar dreams. will u come true??
hmm. getting more and more tired wif each passing day. ok. off to dreamland now. :)

ok. wake up early to check my results at 8.30. den i on my hp den receive trudy's msg tat results are out. i was like blur. how come so early. den her msg make me kan chiong. den i nv wash up den i went to check. den was happy to receive tat kind of grades. haha. didn't expect tat. seriously. haha. hmmm..
den as usual went to work. den i went to buy chocolate, guess red fren coming tat's why feel like eating chocolates. haha. den i think my stomach expand liao. cause i am not full after i eat my meals. so sad la. this means tat i would eat more, den eating more would result in getting fatter. i dun wan la. i can feel my tummy coming out. haiz. gonna exercise soon sia.
working at the pasar malam is so hot. the fan, will suddenly switch off, den the whole row no fan or lights. den so hot la. can see everyone sweat dripping down. so cute. haha. hmm. have been drinking lots of water though. haha. hmmm. tat's all yeah. hmm.. cheers!! :)

work work work. not tat busu though. mayb cause it is juz the starting. think the last 2 weeks sure busy. tat's if the malays haf the $$ to buy. haha. and tat's if the boss or company give them extra $$ or bonus. haha. tat's if pur economy is doing gd. haha. crap. i hate fitting in the 30" by 30" cushion. so hard to put in. almost throw the thing away la. but, i got gd temper. hehe. kiddin.
tmr,60 oct,9am, the reults for my exams will be out. i feel kind of scared. but den is like cause i work, this result thing slip off my mind. i hope i can do well and dun need to repeat the module. den i can tell my parents tat i haf done i gd job. i oso wan my dad to be happy, den he dun need to be so worried and stess.
oh ya. today 5 oct is my parents 20th wedding anniversary. so long huh. haha. may them last forever and..... be so loving. but, they are not loving. haha. hmm. oh ya. i saw chen liping and chen tai ming(mediacorp artists) . no big wu ha rite. haha. why not be some handsome cool guy. haha. ai ya. pasar malam, wat to expect. hehe. ok la. gd luck to all those peeps who are getting their results tmr. cheers!! :)

hmmm. went to work wif my dad. but haf not really start work yet. cause they are putting up the stocks, hanging those curtains. yup yup. i help to stack up some stocks. but i was sitting down most of the time cause i dunno how to hang curtain. hehe. at first, i was angry and reluctant to work cause my dad force me to. but, after knowing tat he slept for like only 2 hrs cause of the pasar malam, i was sad. den, i was ok wif helping him work. hope he does not over tire himself and fall sick.
sorry to my frens out there for not being able to go out wif u all. but, i promise i will try to find time k. i will try. i juz wanna help my dad in every way i can. he is always getting so stress up n moddy cause of this pasar malam thingy. if not cause of wanting us to have a better life, he would not do all these.
oh ya. after hearing wat my mum tell me, it really warms my heart. i didn't noe my little bro cares abt me till now. my mum was telling me tat everytime my bro come home from sch, the first qns he would ask my mum is where is jie jie, wat time is she coming home. den i came back frm camp on sat. but he slp early, den the next morning, the first thing he wake up, he ask my mum, wat time jie jie come home ytd, den when my mum say 10 plus, my bro say den u got go down n bring her up. after listening to all these, i was touched. seriously.
juz wanna say, thanks little bro, though u won't get to see this. but thanks a lot. i will treat u better, not tat i treat u badly. hmm. family are really impt but frens are oso impt. so, cherish them b4 it is too late. :)

hmmm.. back from floorball camp.. woohoo.. had a lot of fun. miss tha camp though... haiz. i guess i juz briefly write wat i did. here goes:
fri did some light training la. den nothin much though. eh. actually got, but not gonna say. haha. cause........ muhahaha... there were games la, quite fun though-team building games. den slept at 1 plus. but can't fall asleep though. tossing ard,half awake half asleep.
den today, woke up at 6.15 den wash up den pt den normal training. today is a TIRING day man. haha. there is 2 match la. den one match is hr, den very tiring already. woohoo.. we lost one match and win one match. haha. and...... i fell down in both match cause the floor is SLIPPERY.. haha. den the guys oso got match. their match very exciting sia.. cause got.... haha. hmmm. den tat makes up the whole afternoon. so u can imgaine la. den is some games den i am home.
i miss the camp. it's been so long since i haf camp. ehhh.. not really, tat time st john camp. den, after playing the two matches, find tat floorball is really a fun game. but i dun wanna always fall down la. pain pain wor. haha.
gonna work already den cannot go for training.. dunno how sia. later lose skill or wat. all cause if whose fault? his fault. haiz. i give in so much already den he juz won't give in. haiz. hmm.. miss my group in sec sch n poly. ahhh.. when am i gonna see them again???